This is a long cut i got on my hand when i walk past this girl today, her file dont know made of wat, when it scratched me, damn pain. The photo is not very clear, actually its quite deep and obvious and red. My hand looks so ugly now. Oh, i got a big bruise on my leg too :( im ugly.

Sigh. Frantic week. In fact, its gonna last until 24th dec. No fun, no going out etc.
So basically, im tired.
Physically and mentally tired.
Hmm, im just a robot now. Just keep going on, doing the same thing everyday.
Today im sleeping after 1am again. Every week will have one day i sleep after 1am. Sigh.
Anyway, i think i cant make people happy.
I dont know. Im a boring person recently. With no life.
Need friends, etc to support me behind, etc.
Sometimes, i just need people to talk to so that i can laugh and cheer up a little.
Sigh. I dont know.

*i know i cant, but it just keeps coming?
I dont know.
Im tired. I feel like throwing everything away.

Anyway, have been sick lately. And its so tiring to keep moving on and working hard.
And one key weakness - im AFRAID. Afraid of alot of things.
But oh well, just keep pushing on.
And anyway, thanks vicki for the 'pi pa gao' to make my sorethroat better :)

*where is the love and happiness in me?

Nothing to anyone.
Just useless.
Never good enough for anything, anyone.
Just a slacker for life to people.
Whatever i do, its not good.
Whatever im thinking, its never good.
Leave me alone, let me be.

This is a picture of vicki and me at sentosa. :) more sentosa please

Hmm, well back to wat i want to post.
Oops, its going to be 2am. Better hurry before its 2am so that i can go sleep soon.
This week's great too. Ok not bad.
Monday to thurs met junfa for gym, find vicki at her workplace, etc. And accompanied vicki to buy her flats ad pants before cell on thurs too.
Tuesday had fever for one night only but now im losing my voice badly with sorethroat and cough.
Hmm, i wont be free anymore man.
Sadded. How to meet like that. Jia lat
Sigh.. Need to help my mum with her work cause its xmas season.
Where got time. And no time for cell too. How.. I wanna go cell badly :( i feel so bad as well.
Hmm, ok cannot update much alr. Need to go to sleep alr. Tata!

Im not good enough?
I want to be. But..

* its not about the sweet. The keypoint is meeting...

Today is the first time im sleeping after 2am.
Cant sleep.
Brain filled with many stuffs. Oh well, for the past week, have been meeting calvin and vicki. Enjoyed alot.
All the 'cheer you up', all the dinner, all the going out etc etc.
And i am going to the gym regularly already!
They really make me feel happy and not lonely.
Hmm, i need to save money already.
Im broke!
Anyway, will update again. Short post.

*im always hiding behind a mask be happy on the outside when im not.
When is tis mask going to be taken off?

Went to town to movie today with calvin, vicki and jaime.
Watched 2012. Super long movie but okok, not bad.
In the morning went to calvin's school to work out! And i took my height. Im 170cm!!! Happy!
Hmm, then went home, then went town to meet vicki and jaime then yup..
After that went to bugis to have dinner then home!
Having cell group tmr. But before that i got nth at all. Bored.
Saturday got to go jw for choir.
Hmm, anw these few days i love to take a long bus ride home cause can listen to music and be by myself and think in the bus.
Hmm, my mind has been busy thinking lately.
Cant stop those thoughts.
I really like 'bu xue' this song because its so true i think.
How i wish i can take my heart out and live without it or maybe change a new heart.
Oh well, thats life.
Anyway, i have been trying to improve my lifestyle. And im starting by sleeping earlier these few days and by going to the gym.
Nth much to post already. Bye ppl.


To v: cheer up! No matter what, you can lead on me!

*constantly reminding myself. Because i know.......

Anyway,locked post for the next post thats why tis is the first post to pop out now

Stayed at vicki's place on monday together with junfa.
It was not bad, fun. haha just that junfa's snoring was loud LOL.
And i didnt let vicki sleep. so mean of me haha. Sorry!
Hmm, will be going to meet junfa later to ion! This week is my last weekend which i will be free!
So ppl, pls date me on weekdays and this weekend! hahaha
Ok, i suddenly cant rmb what i want to blog about.
Tmr morning im going to workout!
I wanna stay fit and build some muscles!!
Need to change my whole stupid lifestyle and stop being lazy!!
Need an organiser to kick start my whole new lifestyle! haha plan my schedule etc!!
Alright, gotta to go prepare alr. might be posting again tonight.

Went to sentosa with cg on sunday !
Fun! Hmm, although only a few of us went.
Photos are being uploaded on fb.
Hmm, howhowhow!!!
I dont even know what im thinking now. Shit.
Ahh!!! So many things running thru my mind! So frustrating!
Sigh. Shall update again when i get home. Ciao.

Not feeling good. Emtionally, mentally.
So tired.
Didnt feel like going home early today but i did eventually.
Kind of feel like talking to someone, cheer up and feel better. But its not happening.
Just cant find someone to talk suddenly..
Oh well, what to do.
Sigh..

Ok, leave those emotions aside a little while..update whats happening recently.
I got a new wallet on saturday! My mum bought it for me!! Thanks mummy!
And followed by that, went to DXO with parents and 2nd sis to watch band se7en's halloween gig!! Eldest sis is in the band together with belle and allan moo on vocals !! It was great!
Btw, allan moo is wu qi xian's younger brother!! Cool yea..
Hmm, followed on monday, i went to monsoon optics by monsoon group at tampines one to make a new specs for myself with mummy cause the optician there knows that she work at tampines one management office so we could buy specs at a kind of lower price.
So i looked ard and try to find a specs which suits me.. I find like crazy!! Tried on alot of them but none suited cause i got a small face and they dont have alot of variety of specs despite a no. Of brands they had, like puma, levi's, reebok, quiksilver etc.
I wanted to pick a levi's one but they dun hv alot of types. Its due to the small size of the shop thats why it only has limited specs.. But they might expand soon..
Then i looked ard at the reebok section of specs.. Then i saw one nt bad looking and it suited my face so i decided to pick that frame..
The usual price of the specs was ard $240 but he gave us discount cause my mum's making another specs for my dad so end up its only $200.
Ok, i know its ex but its reebok! And my mum wants me to have a more expensive specs than to keep changing.
But guess what. Im paying it myself! So only ard end nov, dec then i will collect the specs when i pay the full amt!
Hmm next, i went to had a haircut become choir ytd. Its super short now!!! Ahhhh!!! Im not used to this kind of shortness. As in really short!!
Hmm, so thats all for now.. New wallet, new haircut and new specs.. Ready for the new 2010 haha..
Oh ya! And my eyes degree went up!! My right eye used to be 100deg shortsighted. But now its 125deg shortsighted and 25deg astigmatism (散光)! My left eye used to be 25deg shortsighted, 25deg astigmatism but now its 75deg shortsighted and 50deg astigmatism!! Omg!!

*after saying these happy stuffs that happened, i feel alittle better. But still quite down.
But i believe God put me through these obstacles because He knows that i can overcome it!

locked post.

Oh well, here i am to finally update my journal using my phone.
Hmm, what happened the past 2 weeks? Well, nth much happened.
I had my hairdo.. (one of my needs done)
Hmm, cant really think much what did i do..
But i've fallen sick!!
Finished my antibiotics but still not ok yet.
Hmm, things havent been going quite well but still ok.. Still hoping for the better.
Ok, i suddenly cant think of what to update. Haha.
Guess i shall stpp here until i think of what to update again!!

Oh ya! Btw, backstreet boys latest album is out!! I managed to got it at nokia music store and listened to the whole album!! But i still wanna buy the album! Haha and i wanted to say one more thing but i forgot what is it so wait till i rmb then.


*should start to work harder.

Sometimes, not knowing the truth is better. Because it might hurt knowing the truth.

Been a long time since i last updated again.
Hmm, been thinking these days. I got so many needs and wants.
My no.1 need is a haircut+dye+highlight+treatment @ $123!! So expensive.
My no.2 need is a pair of slippers!! Cause i dont have slippers to wear alr!
And many many more needs!!
Next up, my WANTS.
My no.1 'want' is... Iphone 3GS !! Going crazy for it!
My no.2 'want' is shopping!!! Got lots of things to buy!
And many many more..


Hmm, a little confused here, a little confused there..

Hmm, long time since i updated.
So decided to update abit.
hmm, i need a haircut real soon! I need a pair of slippers too!
There are so many things i need, so many things i want. Sigh.

And i just realised one thing.
Often, i seems alright etc on the outside.
But deep down in my heart, i actually got lots of things kept and hidden inside.
my heart is filled with lots of things and questions.
Things like fear, insecurity, sensitive, troubles, burdens, sadness, pain, etc etc.
I always put a strong face on the outside.

God, take those fear away.
Take those insecurity away.
Take so pain and hurts away.
Take those sensitivity away.
Take those troubles and burdens away.
Take those anger and stress away.
Oh God, take all the the negativity and bad thinkings away.

A beautiful life.
*a pure heart, thats what i long for.

I wanna watch The Final Destination!!
Hmm, and also Up.. Haha
Hmm, its raining so heavily outside now.
Going to sleep alr. Gd night ppl! :D

*let's hang out

Been such a long time since i last updated!
Hmm, went to malacca trip on the 16th with the company.. It was fun! Took quite a no. Of photos.. All photos can be found in my fb.
Hmm, then nth muh happened.. Until fri.
Fri went to DXO to catch eldest sis performance. And also bel's performance of course.. It was awesome! They sang so well!! They brought the house down. Haha
Hmm, followed by saturday, had last pract for the performance at VCH. I managed to get a XS gown so was involved!! Yeah! So happy!! :D
Hmm, then sunday rushed dwn to VCH at 2pm. Then rehearsed and prepare for the perf. We were the last item.
We got photoshoot at 6.30pm, then went to the holding area to wait for our item with the orchestra..
Due to the long waiting time, we camwhored like crazy! All photos can be found on fb once again.
Then when it was our turn, we sang so well! The crowd cheered and clap for us un standing ovation. That moment was so touching n proud of ourselves! Bel said that her hair stood up haha. It was great.
And we will be getting certs to show that we performed at VCH haha..
Hmm, thats all for what had happened the past 2weeks.
Till then i shall post again..
Gd night and bye peeps!! :D

The millennial choir did great!! Woooh!!

Hey!! Im back to blog again! Haha..
Hmm, went to watch 'the hangover' on monday. Its nice and funny! Just that there were some nudity! Haha
Hmm, been working this week.. So taurus actually went to east coast today for awhile.. Then we headed to cine to watch 'G.I Joe' .. The sound were super loud!! But nice!! The movie is cool and nice! Haha
Hmm, this week watched 2movies alr..
Oh ya, just nw i waited for 1hr 30mins for my stupid night bus!
Hmm, so tired.. Lack of sleep.
This sunday will be going to malacca for a one day trip! :D
The day before might go to ktv to song or what so aft that can go straight the next day! M first overseas trip with taurus and the company!
Look forward to more trips! :)

Alright, shall end here!

My throat hurts. And got lots of phelgm.. Got ait of dry cough.
Hmm, i officially hit my position alr!! Yay!
Of course, i want to thank my parents cause they helped me to hit! Can say so lah.
Hmm, then today team taurus had an outing! Went to watch 'the hangover' at vivo. Its hilarious!! Haha but got abit of nudity lah.. NC16 movie.
Lol. Hmm had a great time watching that show cause its entertaining.
This sunday might be going sentosa with taurus. Unless got something more impt? Haha
Ok thats all for today. Gd night peeps!!

*yet another locked post before and aft this public post.

Had chc 20th anni.. During first svc, wasnt feeling well.. Alittle feverish.
Now having sorethroat and alittle cough.
And im so tired. Super lack of sleep. Fri to sat only slept for 2hrs cause had pract at indoor.
While today, had to wake up at 4am cause need to reach indoor at 6.30am.
And tmr, need to run some errands then head to office to submit sales before 2pm. Anyway, i've promoted!! Yes! Haha
hmm, wanna watch harry potter and GI. Joe.. But duno when i will watch. Cause nobody to watch with.
Hmm, should be standard with miao, junn and jingwen.
Hmm, ok nth to say alr.

msg me if you want to. Thinking if should msg.

Journal updated.. But locked post.

Oh! Its been a long time since i laat updated my journal!
Last week was my birthday.. I had the best birthday ever! Plus received lots of gifts. Thanks people! :D
Hmm, nth much happened.. Lazy to blog actually. Haha
Today is saturday.. A boring saturday.. At home do nothing.
Hmm, hopefully i will be able to sleep early as i got church tmr!!
Oh man, what to blog about? Hmm, oh ya! I downloaded games ro my phone! Yeah!! Haha..
Oh well, i guess i shall stop here.. At least i did update yea?
Ok bye peeps!